the ben identity

ha. been 2 weeks since i last update liaoz... didnt really have any mood to write anything.. not sure why... no inspiration lehz! lol.

anyway... pardon my previous post. wallowing in self pity... duh!! glad i have snapped out of it. but well.. there are probably times when everyone feel they have kinda lost a bit of direction... but i guess we just have to take things 1 thing at a time and each day as it comes huh?

i am still 81 days from ord. gettin a bit tedious with the countdown. but the no. flashes automatically to mind everyday! hm... its also 4 days to 2005!~

tis year 2004 has been pretty uneventful i guess... at least for me! cant really think of any significant thing that happenned... other than gettin my driving license... another low year i guess!

hmm 2005 is coming... time for new year resolutions... well... havent really given it much tot... but how many pple really keep their new year resolutions? lol... not me... haha... ok think i will give it some serious tot... and post it another time?

recently, my father been organizing a birthday celebration for my upcoming birthday... of cos for the family la.. so i've gotten to thinking... of organizing a birthday celebration with my frens... maybe book a chalet or something.. but wonder if i book a chalet.. how long should it be? 2 days 1 nite? should be enuff? when should it be? 14th? next day is a school day? 11th friday? but its chu san? how bout the 18th, fri? but birthday over liaoz? how bout earlier? 4th? fri? but msut take leave leh... or 5th sat? too close to cny? lol... i'm too indecisive.. some one help me!! give me ideas leh.. hope to come to a decision soon....

lalala... anyway.. in the new year hope to change my blog a bit... maybe design background all still the same simple stuff la.. but change the contents a bit.. details... to come.. haha...

thats all for this post i guess... stay tuned~

hm ok ignore the tagboard where i said i will try to blog on wed... i'm gonna blog now.
quit rare huh. instead of procrastinating.. i'm er.... ok wad's the opposite of procrastinating? dun think i dunno huh... i'm just testing u haha..

feel like i'm rather aimless lately.. everyday passes with no meaning.. haiz.. if life is a wave.. i guess my wave is not creatin any splashes currently.. probably the kind surfers dun give a second look... argh wadever..

i believe that evryone needs a direction in life. whether it be to get a degree, work hard for a better life or wadsoever.. at the moment, i'm pretty much without direction. everyday is just another day. HELP! i need directions!! anyone there?? zzz

hm... i think u may be gettin lost reading my blog haha.. i guess that sums up wad i have to say la.. pretty aimless entry..

yeah recently been going through a mad streak as well.. haha.. probably to entertain myself.. haha.. i'm crazy. hi leftie~ hi rights!! lol. duh.

that's all i wanna write now.. gonna look for some new direction.. argh. think army is gettin to me again. shucks.. bye.. til next entry..~

p/s... right on cue... when i was typing anyone there? ms harnie decided to use webcam to make spastic face! haha. luff until i pengz.. cos the lag make her look super funny.. hahaa... i cant stop luffing! thanks ms harnie! thanks for making luff today haha.... hahaha... i'm mad.

Ha. I am improving. 2nd blog entry in less than a week! woo hoo!! think i too free la.. haha... hm those who havent read the previous entry pls go find it sumwhere.

today is december the 8th... 17 days from xmas... 24 days from 2005.. 68 days from me becoming a voter... and... 101 days from ord... haha.. i'm bored huh?

actually i aint have nothing much to write about now.. can see i'm just basically crapping along haha.

xmas is coming. as mentioned before somehow there's no feeling of it about me.. maybe i've been in the army too long? xmas feels like just any other old day. not even gettin excited about it.. zzz... i'm beginning to think twice whether to get xmas gifts for everyone.. maybe not something very expensive is in order... just something to spread the spirit of xmas around.. not that i'm full of it myself.. haha..(not funny hor? dunno why i luff also... think i'm mad.)

still thinkin wad i should do on xmas eve... hope i dun have to book in to camp on xmas. so sad. army sucks. dun even know whether need to book in. argh! hope no need la .. haiz.(i'm really sighin here)

hm.. let's move on.. more crap.. hm i'm on leave on monday~ haha.. quite happy.. but still not sure wad to do(again...) think i'll sleep late for once... since i'll probably be watching football on sunday... hm gettin bored reading this crap? i'm gettin bored writing it.. haha

hm... beginning to think of wad to do after ord.. still pursuin my dream of watching a live arsenal game at highbury.. unfortunately, still no progress in the savings department. also thinking of making a few short trips.. once again.. the moolah factor.
SHOW ME THE MONEY!!! besides enjoying maybe find a job or two.. since stay home "tiao-ka" earn no money.. haiz... anyone wanna hire me? i wouldnt. slacker.

not bad a lot of crap liaoz.. was thinking of writing a tribute for my frens actually... but realised i'm having ZERO inspiration. think army is gettin to my brains. i cant think someone help me.. think i'll go find some brains now... goodbye

P/S this is the end of another crapping session. thanks for the attention. sorry for abrupt end.

yeah i know i havent been writing my blog again.. well... wad matters is i'm writing it now rite?

hm... anyway a general update..

recently gone sentosa mad!! keep going sentosa.. well.. think its a worthwhile way to spend my off day la... better than slack at home internet tv sleep. hm nothing much else to update. hm about 100 days to ord. still long. zzz...

some random tots now..

pretty happy recently in the company of the sa bowlers.. never tot will have friends like them.. if u all realise i dun have close sec sch friends.. rarely even keep in touch. think i'm quite fortunate ba.. but think the sa bowlers are quite lucky too.,.. cos they have me as a fren hahahaa... =Þ crazy ben. wonder how come always end up with me making stupid faces when we meet.. ha.. yeah june i'm practising the eye part... but kinda hard la.. haha

hmm xmas is coming... think this will be another low key year for me.. no giving presents no wild parties, no receiving presents... etc.. well cant blame me la... in the army so poor.. summore last month arsenal keep losing, hence i also losing... fortunately november is over... hope next year i can give everyone a nice present.. hm... still no xmas feeling about me. zzz

end of another blog entry... well.. hope i will write again soon?